It was during these solitary moments of my life that heard the presence of my friend speaking to me aloud, offering me peace and serenity. The poem is a reflection of my innerself and reveals the turbulence in my life.
LET YOUR JUDGEMENT FALL
Tossed by thoughts, wrecked by love
No where to go, no where to sleep
Serenity was far, peace buried down deep
Many came...stopped...passed by
But none could hear my deep cry
The groaning and moaning of my heart
Which was gradually tearing me apart
You came...stopped...didn’t walk away
But not a single word did you say
Your deafening silence spoke to me
I am here! To set you free!
From the craving for love
From the longing for peace
Thus releasing the fragrance of cool breeze
On this furnace-like heart
That knew no joy; that knew no ease
Not a moment did it take to realise
You are the one! I can pay any price...
To be with you, to be your friend,
To cherish a relationship that would know no end
Love, trust and peace would it blend
And soothe my heart that needs a mend
Moments flew away, hours whisked by
I could hear the diminishing pain in my cry
You spoke nothing, but just stood by
While I was fighting the turbulent race
Truth struck me violently on my face
Love knows no colour, no religion, no race
Said Truth to me with a smiling face
Melted away these words my hesitation
Finally has come the joy of liberation
An assurance of true friend in you did it give
Came at last in me – the desire to live
“How do I begin?” to myself I asked
Because my life, I’ve always hidden and masked
But here I was with the courage to speak
To unveil my true self to a stranger I met last week
The true self that I was unaware of, myself
But with the hope of getting some help
To untangle the mysteries of my life
To cut the knots of complexities with piercing knife
The day came...
I walked to you, poured out my heart
Surprise might have thrown you apart
The embarrassment you tried to hide from me
Captured by thoughts to hide and flee
To flee from my presence
As my words to you, made really no sense
But bearing with me, you walked my way
I would do something that I would not say
I would say something that I would not do
Which shook your mind saying, “He’s not true!!!”
Tortured and killed were your thoughts by me
Leaving you wondering, “Who can this be?”
Testing my uncertainty did you start
You tested and tried me in bits and parts
I failed the test and to say the best
My life is in your hands and I rest...
...Waiting in silence for your JUDGEMENT to fall
“You are my true friend”
OR
“Dumbest of all !”
